one not so perfect photo collection -- this is how my life is too

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my favorite for ten great years

"If you wake up in a red room with no windows and doors, Don't panic.. you're just in my heart!!!"

friends for ever isn't long enough--and love is forever and a day

i don't want to live a day without my love, my friend. selfish yes--but honest

labor day a time to reflect on summer

why do we think summer starts on memorial day and ends with labor day? there is much more time for hot weather. the rain was a welcome relief, and my "job" is a pleasure to go to everyday. he is beautiful, intelligent, so entertaining, and a promise that God has his on agenda. every child is a miracle. i can only imagine how much joy and happiness our grandchild will bring to our family. my prayers for a healthy baby and a healthy parent are foremost in my thoughts, and for a safe daily trial as marshall deals with the law breakers--- and also for virginia and will. just thinking out loud because i have so much in my head it will explode if there is no relief. another long week ahead --sold 23$ in tupperware today...wow it is really taking off isn't it???

If you were a wrestler, what would be your finishing move?

if i were a wrestler my finishing move would be pinning my opponent. is'nt that the point?

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just jean

to do or not to do

i said no more money spent on my mouth and now i am going in for a root canal today. i don't want to be the toothless granny, but am i ready to do it at 49? i don't know anything anymore. this week off well 10 day was to be productive and feel good revived and accomplished. far from it........ the first 3 days in bed- sick, and then who knows what else consumed me --- i am trying to cleanse my head my heart, and rid myself and my home of unused things. so far i have a collection on junk mail in a box, few folders labeled with titles only i understand but can't read my writing. and the same bags of clothing that i will most likely go thi=rough again........ help me help myself.

reminders from God

"Journey through this world simply seeking to do My Will and Work. Never keep anything you are not using."
as i struggle with letting go of items that are possessions i feel a strong attachments to because of the time in my life they were used, i know at some point i will very likely have those things taken from me-- in many ways-- but the attachment is because of the memories i associate with those things....the warmth and happy feelings that come to mind no matter how small or how much i accumulate. i have the memories and the fear that when the physical closeness is gone, so will be the reward. a tug of war inside my mind and heart. i will share with others who do not have, and need what i do have. the memory and the feelings of being useful and contributing to a good cause will become a blend, some that i can be so very happy with, and some that i may still have doubts and battles about that blending. and i will ask and seek peace and find it in very unexpected ways--i will do because i need to do this for jean. i will walk with my heavenly father hand in hand in a simple life---he will provide all i need, and that will be my reward for a job he is pleased with. today i will begin the walk on a new exciting path.

how to peel an apple.....................

to peel an apple without breakings the peel as it comes off: use the tupperware universal peeler to make this task a breeze. start at the top of the apple where the stem is and keep continuous pressure and the same amount of pressure as you break the skin and rotate the apple gently without stopping and concentrate on the love of your life while doing this. as you reach the bottom of the apple, slowly carve into the bumps as closely as you can to the belly button on the apple core. if you have peeled without breaking the ribbon formed of the skin from the apple, your wish for love will always come true -- but it has to be done with a tupperware product. if you do not have one, contact me and i will gladly help you with all your tupperware needs and products @ http:/my.tupperware.com/jeanbpatterson

fly away from the past

you are my sunshine

today as i was listening to dr phil, i could hear myself in some of the things a guest on the show was saying. during a commercial the song you are my sunshine was being hummed and it reminded me of the first time i held you in my hands. i thought about how it felt when the dr told your mama she could only have 2 people with her, and she said your daddy and me. i know there were times during the delivery that your mama told me to leave the room and it did hurt to have her say that to me. i am glad that she and i do not argue and use loud voices as much as we did. i can not tell you the last time, except on the wedding day she was the commander, instead of allowing herself to enjoy, but the point is our words and interactions are better, and i believe your daddy has been the catalyst for this new relationship. i will tell them and him thank you and i will try to keep things good from my end. i still wish you were here, and there will not be another baby taking your place ever. keep me a place to be with you again. i l love you baby girl. the verse for today has a special impact on my thinking ::Keep close to Me. I am the Way that is the solution to all Earth’s problems. i want to be with everybody i miss badly and i will do my best to enjoy my time with my family here, but i want to have my cake and eat too. i am going to do better.

summer has arrived in sc along with much more

after typing for 30 minutes, the home page of google -- my igoogle decides to refresh with me asking it to do this and i lost all that i have typed, and have no clue how to retrieve -- like i asked it to delete--- story of my life . lose the things that are important, and have all the unimportant things all around me like irritating people too.

my original composition was expressing feelings about death and loss and the importance of knowing family history so health matters can be addressed if needed. lilli i hope your great grandmother has introduced you to another kind of love and please ask God if you can give us a little rain so my flowers will not all die, and the well go dry. i hope your mother has twins and that your fathers is good to her and takes care of her and please watch over him while he is on duty. keep him safe, and your mother too. love you precious, you are my sunshine

after typing for 30 minutes, the home page of google -- my igoogle, decides to refresh without me asking it to do this and i lost all that i have typed, and have no clue how to retrieve those one million words-- like i asked it to delete--- story of my life . lose the things that are important, and have all the unimportant things all around me like irritating people too.

my original composition was expressing feelings about death and loss and the importance of knowing family history so health matters can be addressed if needed. lilli i hope your great grandmother has introduced you to another kind of love and please ask God if you can give us a little rain so my flowers will not all die, and the well go dry. i hope your mother has twins and that your father is good to her and takes care of her and please watch over him while he is on duty. keep him safe, and your mother too. love you precious, you are my sunshine

fathers day

of course this is about missing my daddy, but a father can be so many different things. i see the man that cares for all of us, everyday of the week, without doing for himself and that makes my husband fit the description of what i think a father should be. he has never gotten ties for gifts because he has the one that he wears if ever he needs to have one on and that is a rare and extreme circumstance to cause him to dress in that way. he has gotten shirts, tee shirts, and sock, underwear, slacks, and short pants, maybe swimming trunks, occasionally work books, but never big items to surprise him with, because the last time i tried that was i think 3 christmas ago, and the craftsman tools have never , never been taken from their packaging, so if the power tool doesn't work, we are way past the time to make an exchange. i think i know what he wants, but do i really? no do i know what he needs? little things, but not was he desires to have for a specific need. he doesn't say i want ever that i can give him that item. i can't even try to give him things that are not material things. we have lost that part of us where we tell the other hopes, dreams desires---and only say i don't want to hear that, or i'm tired of eating the samethings etc. i miss having that in my life.
i love the father of my children, and i hope he feels he is loved by all of us who depend on him, and run to him, and call in the middle of the night to be rescued. yes even our 20 something kids still call for daddy to fix it, what ever it might be. i will try to make the day to honor fathers a pleasant day for him, because i want to. i know he misses his father too, although it is never talked about. right now a friend from thirty years ago is dying. burmah made our courtship at long beach good, and many trips followed made possible because of his kindness, saving us money by letting us stay in his beach house. trey has reminisced with him a few hours which was good for both of them. he will not live to celebrate another father's day unless God has the plan in place for his life to be much longer than the doctors predict. trey will miss his friend who was a father figure in his early adult years. and the memories of good times will not be taken away when he dies. but we are all dying even as we are living. we are living until we die, and no one or no thing can predict the time for us, except our heavenly father. there is a special place in heaven for fathers, and daddies, and for those people who were like a daddy to so many people. i know i will see my daddy again and everyday should be the day to honor fathers, i hope i have helped to teach my children that important part of life.

can you feel the love tonight

summer comes with a promise of hot dry weather once again-- my birthday was good, my anniversary is still nice, and as always he buys me what i want. i need him, and i love him, for 30 years i have tried in every way to cause him to throw me out, and he still keeps me. what a wonderful man, and a perfect husband, and father for our children. who could ask for anything more? i still do so many times.

Tupperware business is not going as a dream job--but neither was any other job i dabbled in. i should just stick to being a house wife, no just a person in a house. i despise house work. that is no surprise. jean

happy anniversary trey and me 1980-2008 june 8