you are my sunshine

today as i was listening to dr phil, i could hear myself in some of the things a guest on the show was saying. during a commercial the song you are my sunshine was being hummed and it reminded me of the first time i held you in my hands. i thought about how it felt when the dr told your mama she could only have 2 people with her, and she said your daddy and me. i know there were times during the delivery that your mama told me to leave the room and it did hurt to have her say that to me. i am glad that she and i do not argue and use loud voices as much as we did. i can not tell you the last time, except on the wedding day she was the commander, instead of allowing herself to enjoy, but the point is our words and interactions are better, and i believe your daddy has been the catalyst for this new relationship. i will tell them and him thank you and i will try to keep things good from my end. i still wish you were here, and there will not be another baby taking your place ever. keep me a place to be with you again. i l love you baby girl. the verse for today has a special impact on my thinking ::Keep close to Me. I am the Way that is the solution to all Earth’s problems. i want to be with everybody i miss badly and i will do my best to enjoy my time with my family here, but i want to have my cake and eat too. i am going to do better.