to do or not to do

i said no more money spent on my mouth and now i am going in for a root canal today. i don't want to be the toothless granny, but am i ready to do it at 49? i don't know anything anymore. this week off well 10 day was to be productive and feel good revived and accomplished. far from it........ the first 3 days in bed- sick, and then who knows what else consumed me --- i am trying to cleanse my head my heart, and rid myself and my home of unused things. so far i have a collection on junk mail in a box, few folders labeled with titles only i understand but can't read my writing. and the same bags of clothing that i will most likely go thi=rough again........ help me help myself.