fathers day

of course this is about missing my daddy, but a father can be so many different things. i see the man that cares for all of us, everyday of the week, without doing for himself and that makes my husband fit the description of what i think a father should be. he has never gotten ties for gifts because he has the one that he wears if ever he needs to have one on and that is a rare and extreme circumstance to cause him to dress in that way. he has gotten shirts, tee shirts, and sock, underwear, slacks, and short pants, maybe swimming trunks, occasionally work books, but never big items to surprise him with, because the last time i tried that was i think 3 christmas ago, and the craftsman tools have never , never been taken from their packaging, so if the power tool doesn't work, we are way past the time to make an exchange. i think i know what he wants, but do i really? no do i know what he needs? little things, but not was he desires to have for a specific need. he doesn't say i want ever that i can give him that item. i can't even try to give him things that are not material things. we have lost that part of us where we tell the other hopes, dreams desires---and only say i don't want to hear that, or i'm tired of eating the samethings etc. i miss having that in my life.
i love the father of my children, and i hope he feels he is loved by all of us who depend on him, and run to him, and call in the middle of the night to be rescued. yes even our 20 something kids still call for daddy to fix it, what ever it might be. i will try to make the day to honor fathers a pleasant day for him, because i want to. i know he misses his father too, although it is never talked about. right now a friend from thirty years ago is dying. burmah made our courtship at long beach good, and many trips followed made possible because of his kindness, saving us money by letting us stay in his beach house. trey has reminisced with him a few hours which was good for both of them. he will not live to celebrate another father's day unless God has the plan in place for his life to be much longer than the doctors predict. trey will miss his friend who was a father figure in his early adult years. and the memories of good times will not be taken away when he dies. but we are all dying even as we are living. we are living until we die, and no one or no thing can predict the time for us, except our heavenly father. there is a special place in heaven for fathers, and daddies, and for those people who were like a daddy to so many people. i know i will see my daddy again and everyday should be the day to honor fathers, i hope i have helped to teach my children that important part of life.